Stressed out.....,(

So as of lately, I've been stressed out on a lot of things. The biggest one is that I'm moving out by the end of the summer to a new place. The rent there is $409 a month. I am so scared that I won't be able to make the rent because even though I am getting a ton of hours at work, it's when school starts that will kick me in the balls because I'll be focus more on school & I won't be able to work the hours I have been working. I have been looking for another job so it's another source of income and a way for a set schedule of hours. The job I have right now is I ask for hours or see what hours are available and it's first come first serve. Right now I have hours for about a week so yay there. I also realized that July is around the corner and the rent due is on Aug 1, so stressed level is kick in, I am hoping that I'll be able to make rent for a least for 2-3 months in advance so that way I have a safety net. Another thing that is causing stress is that I'm going to Pax Prime (At least I am hoping to go). I have the pass and thing paid for. Problem is, MONEY. Looking in to flight, hotel, food, swag that I might want to get, and for a safety net, That's about $400-$500 for the trip (like I said, that is guesstiment with a safety net cause you never know). I really do want to go, but if money issues come up, I am boned. It's just all bullsh*t right now. Also, recently my grandfather died out of the blue so *beep*. It was maybe a few weeks ago, but the funeral just haunts my memories and I can't seem to get rid of them. It's like I'm relieving the funeral over and over again, seeing the coffin and the flag being handed to my grandmother. Painful really. Another thing that's stressing the hell out of me is family. Lately my sister is being a bit moody and her boyfriend seems to hint that I am being lazy and because I can't find another job. His brother on the other hand is getting jobs left and right, while I am struggling trying to find another one. Every time something good happens to him, he gets so much praised. Me? I get a stare and a whoopee do. Sometimes my jealous just festers when ever that happens. When it does though, I usually go for a walk and talk to myself. May sound crazy, but it helps gather my thoughts, plus it's nice to talk once in a while to myself. Like I said, a lot of things are happening to where I can't take it anymore. I feel like I want to quit or just get the hell out of this state. I keep quite to myself and don't get out a lot (except for my job, but even that can get repetitive), so I amit I am lonely. True I have my friends online that I love and consider family to me and always put a smile on my face. I do really want to go back to "Let's Plays" I miss those so much. The making of the videos, commentary, editing, and just having fun with it. A hobbit I truly miss ;(. Well I think that is that. Let's hope something amazing will happen my way very soon. See you guys later.

-Gex