PsychoticGex

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So Halo 4 is out and by the sounds of it, it blew away expectation. I unfortunately can not get it yet, I'll get it when I pick up Black Ops II and oh will that be oh so much fun to play with the guys again. As much hell I'm going through right now, I try and find ways to relax and have some me time, but now I just spent all that time on school, working graveyards now having to drive 30 minutes to where i now work, sleep now during the day when I have no classes, etc. However as I said, it may be hellish and not the smartest moves that I am doing right now, but eh you got to do what you got to do. Making a lot of plans for the rest of the year and then plan trips, vacation, work days, etc for the next 8 months or so. That maybe a lot and far away, but the way my life is right now, only way I can make sure I can doing anything for myself without having to worry about anything schedule conflicts is to plan it out and not just wing it right there and then. (Though I rather prefer that, but life tends not to work for you).  Lots of planning and life events going on and stuff is giving me stress and stuff, but meh that's the life of a college student. Soon though and hopefully, I'll move out from the apartments I'm living in now and into a house that's cheaper than $409 a month. If that can happen, my stress levels will be reduced so greatly. Well back to work for me, woot.

Another day, another journal. So these past few weeks have been most stressful, due to working this theater show has been taking time form work and it's starting to hurt me financially, but that comes with the class, there was no way I could get out of it, but only till the 27th shall I be free and can work like crazy.  I'm going to try going to Pax East this year. I got my three day pass and now I just need to work on where to stay, who is going and so on.  I made it to Pax Prime; I'll try my best to go to Pax East. Be nice to see my friends and have a good time. Lately I've been thinking about school and life. I've been going to college for about 4 years and to be honest, I'm done with school. I am tired of it. I would have been done with it by this year, but no, the university didn't count some credits that got transfer and now, I have to somewhat start all over again. (They consider me a sophomore rather than me a senior) Which is all bullsh*t. I've also notice that moving away from my sister didn't really help me as I thought it would. I mean yes I don't have her or her boyfriend breathing down my freaking neck, but in a way, she keeps throwing these jobs my way and it like "Sis, I already have a job, I'm getting a raised, and I cannot work two jobs and go to school full time. I'm already working full time, going to school full time, and I am suffering the price of this. I'm behind in my classes, not getting enough sleep, trying to get hours to pay rent, and here is my sis, not having to worry about paying rent because her boyfriend pays the rent (I have to pay 409 a month on my own, he pays around 800 or so, but he has a big paying job and already has his degree) but this women still pulls this crap on me. It's ridiculous, it's like she trying to control my life or trying to be my mother and I HATE IT. It just adds more stress and depression to my plate.  I also hate that when I got into an argument with my sister she all like "I just want you to prove everyone wrong or some crap." Well guess what sis, you fail in that department, you have not only screwed me over, but you have ruined me and mentally scar me because of that. So good job on that you dumbass. Also when I think something is wrong with me, my sister just doubts me or pushes me down, well f**k you sis.  I have to keep kicking myself in the butt just to go through the day and do school work because either I'll get lazy or I have a difficult time keeping focus on the work.  It just pisses me off so much I've tried to break my habits, but then again "Old habits die hard." Well I think I've vent and ranted enough. See you all later,
-Gex

Been sometime since I wrote a journal, seeing that one all stressed out and among other things was something I didn't want to still be on there. So how about a journal filled with happy things.  About a month ago, I went to Pax Prime in Seattle,Washington and the experience there was just amazing. It really helped me to get away from everything and go somewhere with people who have the same interest as you and  just enjoying yourself. To be honest words truly can not describe the experience I had there. Meeting all the people I follow, getting to hang out with them and getting to play some games with the. So awesome. I cosplayed as Mario and a lot of people really enjoyed my outfit and how I was so amazing sounding like Mario. That really boosted not only myself esteem, but also breaking down my social wall and opening up. Really was an amazing time and I will go back there next year, but now I want to try and go to Pax East cause a lot of my close friends are going there and I want to me them in in person and just have a ball of a time (I just need to start saving my money and all should be good, that and work like fucking crazy ). Been trying out my new digital studio and really am loving it. I have been doing some test recording and trying out streams to make sure that everything works fine. Problem is though is that my Sony Vegas Pro 11 just will not open. I've re-downloaded it and tried and still will not open. I really don't want to go out and buy a psychical copy of the software (since after all it it about $650) and no way in hell do I have that kind of cash. I'll figure something out (hopefully). I am so please that I am doing recordings again and getting back into the swing out things. I miss doing my favorite hobbies and now, I am back in business and ready to start "Let's Playing" again. Well that's all I have to say, See you guys around.

-Gex